There, and back again

Her mind started to wander out of nowhere, back to where she was before. Why is she having second thought again even though everything seems to be perfect right now? Reason, unknown. Why is she even depressed when things are working well? Perhaps she just needs a moment to herself, listening to that inner voice, listening to staring elf. Was it just yesterday? Because she feels like it's been forever, everything seems so familiar, just like before. Things changed, but did they really? She's been there, yes she's been there a few times. There, and back again. How long more can she take before everything breaks down as before? Answer, unknown. Why is it still so hard? She should have experienced enough by now to get through all this, she should have cried enough to have the courage to carry on. But why is she still losing faith? Perhaps she is just mentally tired. The pain it brings, it never really heals. It always comes back to haunt her. Is she stronger than this? Only time will tell..